nathaniel stuart

you can't read the page if you're printed on it

“There is a point at which everything becomes simple and there is no longer any question of choice, because all you have staked will be lost if you look back. Life’s point of no return.”

—   Dag Hammarskjöld

“All opinions are not equal. Some are a very great deal more robust, sophisticated and well supported in logic and argument than others.”

—   Douglas Adams


page to screen

“Hurry,” she was whispering now, “quickly, quickly, now, do it now, do me now. Jaime Jaime Jaime.” Her hands helped guide him. “Yes,” Cersei said as he thrust, “my brother, sweet brother, yes, like that, yes, I have you, you’re home now, you’re home now, you’re home.” She kissed his ear and stroked his short bristly hair. Jaime lost himself in her flesh. He could feel Cersei’s heart beating in time with his own, and the wetness of blood and seed where they were joined.

Everyone’s talking about this as if this scene in the book was some touching consensual moment and the show differs wildly. But “He never heard her.” is a really important sentence. Cersei did eventually consent, but can we at least stop pretending that her consent mattered at all to Jaime in that moment in the book?

Because she was not consenting when he lifted her onto the alter, pushed up her skirt, undid his breeches, pushed her legs apart, or slid his hand up her thigh. She was actively resisting. And he never heard her. This has never been anything but a scene of dubious consent at best. And the only way that the show really differs is that, instead of Cersei eventually consenting as she does in the book, Jaime’s unspoken thoughts in the scene were voiced with “I don’t care.” 

And, to me, that’s a hell of a lot more responsible and helluva lot more honest than our media continuing to perpetuate the dangerous idea that women who say “no” don’t really mean it or just need convincing.


Jeff Proctor

Fuck Buttons // Surf Solar (by x)

“Stop chasing what
you’re running from.”

—   n.s. white

This is a cover for Adventure Time comic #25 which I think is out this week!


This is a cover for Adventure Time comic #25 which I think is out this week!

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zzzzzzzzzzzzhi! I woke up at four-thirty this morning to my brain running checklists in every direction but sleep! Between keeping up with everything at work, running practical assessments in the gym for the past couple of weeks, grinding out theory assessments in between all that and trying to make the time to look after myself as well, I’m starting to feel a little dizzy with it all. But!

  • I finished all my practical assessments!
  • I have a very clear line between here and the finish line!
  • I had my first proper workout in two months!
  • lunch break coffeetime with Jock!
  • I finally finished No Contest!
  • The Brotherhood of the Screaming Abyss and Notes From the Internet Apocalypse!
  • war stories, personal sovereignty and social accountability with Paige!
  • I wrote my first poem in two weeks!
  • Batman!

Sure, I still have to get right back on the househunting trail, but it’s looking like I’ll have all of my coursework wrapped by early next week at the latest, so plenty of time for that. Every now and again I look up and remember that for all that the past couple of months have ground me down pretty hard, I knew going into it that this was what it was going to take. Before much longer, what I call work won’t be reinforcing bad motor patterns > pain anymore, and instead it’ll let me actively start repairing everything. And being able to afford fun, torturous new treatment options. And being able to get back after Sam² and redbrickroad. So, you know, totally worth it! <3

“The only
way out
is in.”

—   n.s. white

“Study yourself the way a hunter studied prey. Exploit your own weaknesses to create desired changes within yourself.”

—   Grant Morrison (via beherenowandzen)

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“I used to think I was the strangest person in the world but then I thought there are so many people in the world, there must be someone just like me who feels bizarre and flawed in the same ways I do. I would imagine her, and imagine that she must be out there thinking of me too. Well, I hope that if you are out there and read this and know that, yes, it’s true I’m here, and I’m just as strange as you.”

—   Frida Kahlo (via ohflowerchild)

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“Your experiences today will influence the molecular composition of your body for the next two to three months, or perhaps for the rest of your life. Plan your day accordingly.”


UCLA’s Steve Cole from The Social Life of Genes.

Your DNA is not a blueprint. Day by day, week by week, your genes are in a conversation with your surroundings. Your neighbors, your family, your feelings of loneliness: They don’t just get under your skin, they get into the control rooms of your cells.

(via we-are-star-stuff)

All the more reason to surround yourself with people who you enjoy 

(via budddha)

(Source: ucresearch, via bridgettelizabeth)

Crystal Castles // Plague (x)

Jeremy Geddes

“When childhood dies, its corpses are called adults and they enter society, one of the politer names of hell. That is why we dread children, even if we love them. They show us the state of our decay.”

—   Brian Aldiss